Do you notice how things always turn out in the end for the better?
And sometimes you might sit back and realise you cant have it happen any other way?
You meet people and it leads you to another, and so on. Things happen and as a consequence, other events occur.
Like someone close said, 'Just like a ripple'
Usually my journals here on deviantart are fuelled by anger and fustration from family members and those trying to get in my way. And its almost funny to say, but suprisingly im sitting here happy enough with life for once.
Besides the odd fustration with my parents, like today where my mum continually pointed out i was gaining weight. Besides all those little nags, lifes been unreal.

13.04.08 i made one of the biggest choices in life, and self realisations. I became a follower of Christ and for those who arent a believer of God, i suppose you may think less of me starting from now. I was saved on that date. And i ask for people not to think of me differently when i say that. Suppose im sharing quite a big thing with all of yous, cus i havent even had the courage to tell all my athiest mates. They are indeed all athiests, and strong ones at that.. I fear it tbh, but for the people who are christians already, they may understand just what happens, but for those who arent.. i can say now, im not a different person, im still who i am, just now i have hope. And its only now that i realise just how messed up the world is at times. Like my parents for instance... money dominates their thoughts, their dreams, their desires.. its consumed them from ambition and aspiration. Life isnt just about the making money part. As the youth pastor at my church, Dave said.. 'its not the money thats the actual problem, its the desire for it'
And sometimes i feel mildly out of place, both my rents and my sister all believe that money is the most important thing in life, as if its all there is to look forward to. However im completely different, i believe yes money is useful, but having too much of one thing isnt always good.

So anyways, besides telling people here bout my religion and all that jazz, also wanted to relate back to the title before i forget what i set off to talk bout. Anyways, altho i dont update my journal often enough to let everyone know whats been going on. Im sure everyone here has gathered that ive fought my way in order to get the opportunity to go to art college. My parents; altho screamed, shouted, doubted and questioned my ability and skill, they finally came round to realise maybe my chances of getting a good job with my art degree in the future isnt as far from reach as they initially thought.

I had entered a jewellery competition in Belfast last month (city near me for those who have never heard it, lol) and i had entered it last year and got runner up, plus £250. It was pretty damn shocking to me, but i actually won first prize this year, winning a grand plus trophy prize and a good bita recognition. That wasnt really the important bit tbh, but instead i won over my parents. They finally came round to the fact that last year it wasnt just pure luck. And as close as my family are, we never really express it through hugs or any sort of contact. But that day, i came home and my dad just hugged me and said how proud he was of me. NEVER has he done that before, and i mean never..
So i can just hope that maybe my parents can be happy that their daughter has such motivation in something, and that they can be truly happy for me no matter where i am, what i do, and who ive become, im still Georgie.
Every once in a while, for a split sec id wish that i was clever enough to do medicine like my sis, but soon i realise no way... id never trade what i have just for pure knowledge (unless i was just as passionate bout medicine as i am with art atm)

Suppose without my boyfriend Robins support i wouldnt be sitting typing this. Cliche as it may sound but even before i started dating him on the 23.01.08, he had always pushed me in the right direction. I had always doubted that my passion was wrong and my actions wer selfish, but he told me to stay strong and really fight for what i loved because he could see it in me. I didnt have many close people tell me at the time when things wer patchy, that what i was doing was correct, and what i wanted in life wasnt naive and far fetched. He really believed in me, really shown me that altho things may seem to suck at the time, things will always take a U turn and be 10x better than before. Which is true! At the time i woulda never thought id get here, and be sure that by next year id be somewhere doing art. never would i have thought that my parents would even realise this. The world is messed up and ill be stuck in the same situations over and over again, but i really cant imagine what id be like without his word of support. lol id love to pack him in a bag and take him everywhere i go. hes liks such a drive and kick up the ass for me when i need it most. You know when you sit and rant to someone, and all they can say is, akk you'll be fine! I love them for listening, but tbh i hate it when people do that. Cus they can listen but they honestly dont care. As for Robin, he full on says how he feels and even at times would get angry with my rents. There was a point where i said maybe what i was doing was selfish, and i remember his voice raised a good bit in volume in his response. Thats just what i need tho, someone to shout at me in order to make me realise! I love the guy for that!

I really am happy i can paint, draw and see the world in a different perspective. Not alot of people can, and ive been given this for a reason.
Sounds once again, very cliche.. But really, wer good at certain things more than others, and with that you might as well do something with what u have, than sit and wallow bout what you dont have right?!